Just Doing It

So it has been 3 days since my last post. I know many of you may be curious on how I did in my weigh in. After a terrific 1st week. Week two brought me back to reality of my struggle. I came in weighing 240lbs. Yes, I am up two. :( Honestly I thought I was going to lose at least one pound, but there is one thing I most say; as much I am focused on this journey and to complete it, I am not prioritizing my exercise.

The one thing many people know about me is that I am a very busy person. Between my full time job, my new business, getting my Masters and life, I tend to put myself last. It is not an excuse, but a fact. I have done it all my life, but sometimes you just have to break tradition. Many think that things like this come easy, it does not! However, knowing it will be a struggle, you must fight even harder!

After Wednesday's weigh in, I retreated. (It is a typical Jackie style) I needed to rethink. As I did, I felt many emotions come through. Many doubts and fears, but also a sense of pride. The fact I am trying to do something. This was the perfect time for Yogurtland, ice cream and brie with crackers. I did none of that. I continued on my course. I slacked on exercise on Thursday, but snapped out of it on Friday.

After all this I realized trying and doing are two different things, but they do go hand in hand. You have to try something in or to do it. That means, write in my journal, do my exercise, eat where I can eat and feel good about loving me.

It is definitely easier said than done, it is going to be a life long habit to break, but I have to do it. I am 31 and I need to be in love with all of me and show that off by accomplishing the hardest goal I ever had to face. losing my adult weight.

Whether I reach my first goal on Wednesday or not, I will not stop. I will continue to update my progress and continue on this journey of Self-Love.  From now to Wednesday I need to lose 6lbs. It will be tough, but I am in it and there is no looking back.

Cheers to Change!