and the WINNER is?

On Wednesday, I weighed in. This was no normal weigh in. This was a due or die weigh in. Yes, it was THAT important. I had a goal, it was to lose 8lbs by August 8th. I entered Forged Fit and the first thing I went straight too was the scale. Dagan asked if I wanted to work out first and sweat a little before weighing in. My answer: No lets get it over with. I took off my shoes, got on the scale and closed my eyes. I was so nervous that I would be just shy from my goal. At that moment all I knew was that I was proud of myself for trying  to accomplish something and if I lost, I will still continue.

As I was thinking about this, Dagan yells no way! My heart sank and I was like I guess I didn't hit it. I opened my eyes and he yells NO ***** WAY!!! I knew right then something was up. He didn't tell me what was going on until I got off the scale.

With a large smile on his face he said Jackie you lost 7lbs! I was like that's great, but the goal was 8. He explained it was 7lbs this week alone. That the total overall lost was 9lbs. Not only did I lose the goal amount of 8, but I went over by 1. I was in shock! Did I really do this? Did I actually accomplish something in regards to my weight? Did I really lose 9lbs? Really from 240.5 to 233.5???

YES I DID!!!!!!!  I WON MY FIRST BATTLE!!!

I continued my workout in shock. It didn't hit me until I got into the car and started to receive facebook updates and text messages from everyone Dagan contacted. I cried. People always believed that I could do it, but I never believed that I could. I guess working out and exercise does work. :) I also used My Fitness Pal to help me journal my daily routine. This was the first time I proved myself wrong. It gave me a sense of confidence. Maybe I need to put me first to accomplish my first goal.

For all those who never believed in themselves and put others first, I say to you, it is ok to believe and put yourself first. You cannot truly love and support others, if you do not truly love and support yourself. By doing so, you feel more passion and more energy to conquer your battles and to share that passion with others. You become better equipped to help others because you have that joy, passion and celebration in your heart.

Speaking of celebration, I treated myself to no evening workout :)