Realizing True Committment and Starting Over

It has been over a year since my last blog. Many upon many things have occurred since then. I battled an illness, became an active event planner and now presenter/trainer for the Dept of Recreation and Parks. My schedule, set backs etc hampered me from achieving more of my goals.

In January of 2013 I became sick. I was laid flat out on my bed for 3 weeks. I could not move due to pain and excessive bleeding. I found out my condition. I have Polycystic Ovary Syndrome or  PCOS. Why is that important? Long story short, that is why I was not able to win the battle of weight loss. PCOS hinders my hormones, reduces my metabolism and produces extra sugar that my body does not need. Thank God for Dr. Carolyn Alexander. She has put me on a treatment that has helped me control my condition. This treatment is also suppose to help me to lose weight. I was so excited!

Why do I say was? Well from January to Septemeber I lost 10lbs. I want to get under 200lbs for my cousin´s wedding, however like always did not reach my goal. I stayed content. After the wedding, until November, I gained 5lbs and lost 5lbs. I guess you can say I am keeping it neutral.

After spending Thanksgiving in Mexico, I pondered and agreed to have gastric bypass surgery. It would be great! I have the support of my family. It will help me to reduce my treat of PCOS, and, of course, make me look better in clothes. My uncle, who is like my father, even though we did not see eye to eye, supported me on my decision, However, I could tell something was holding him back. He had a trick up his sleeve.

 As I mentioned earlier, my uncle and I did not see eye to eye on the surgery.He wanted an alternative. He found  Dr. Alma Rosa Cervantez. She specializes and treats patients with obesity. Many of her clients are TV Novela Celebrities. Two other people that my uncle knows have gone through her and have lost most of their weight and have been able to maintain it. . Dr. Cervantez does weight reduction massage therapy. It breaks up the fat and resculpts your body. Not only that, you also have to follow a diet that is in accordance to your body type and style. He asked me to do this treatment as last resort. After debating it, I agreed. I thought if it does not work then I can do the bypass. On December 21st, I decided to start treatment here in Mexico City. Since then I am down 6lbs and lost a couple of inches.

Over a year ago I thought that this weight loss thing clicked. That eating right and exercise was the way to go. I still agree with that, however now I learned is that I needed to add one more thing. MENTAL COMMITTMENT. In the last 3 weeks, I have disappointed a person very important to me. I did not mean too. It was never my intention, however my inability to commit to myself affected my dear friend. Why is that important? Because of that inability to commit, it affected me physically. Everyone believed in me, including my good friend, but I never believed in myself. I learned from days of crying, that the reason I never lost weight is because I never believed that I could and, most importantly, I was never committed to myself. Unfortunately it took VERY tough love and disappointing this person to start seeing it.

I always thought that I did. I swore up the ying yang that I was dedicated to my being. I mean look, I survived the roughest eight years of my life, yet the question I had to ask and answer to myself was... If I am so dedicated to me, then why am I still the way that I am? I made excuses. It is because of work, I have no time, my new business, school, money etc etc etc. Never once did I state the TRUTH.
Truth is... I bottled up too much, I take too much on and I put everyone first before me. I do not love me!

Can six days change a person? Perhaps not. However 3 weeks can make you reflect on a lot! So it has clicked in three ways. In order to reinvent Jackie, Jackie has to focus on three things. First and formost, mental committment. If I do not fully commit to loving me in all aspects of my life, then I will never succeed. Second the old tradition of diet and exercise. I want to be healthy, I do not want to suffer like I did in the begining of the year. I want to look sexy in those jeans.  I need to continue with the old fashion diet and exercise. The third way to reinvent Jackie is to Keep It Real. Always be positive, always be upfront and always be open to change. From here on out I promise to post my progress so I can keep myself on track. I will post failures and successes. This is going to be a 180. Complete change physically, spiritually, and MENTALLY!

So here is my first step: On December 21st I weighed 109.9 kilos 242lbs. Today December 29th I weigh 106.2 kilos. 234lbs. I ask everyone who follows this blog to help me in the following: 1) to pray for my strength and success and 2) help keep me on track. Please hold me accountable.

It has finally clicked. Now it is my time! It is my change. I know with mental change, I will be able to lose the weight I want, achieve personal goals with in the next 5 years and be the person who I know that I can be.

Here is to success! Cheers!