...And The Reinvention Begins

In this day and age, everyone is focused on health and fitness. As a recreation professional, fitness and health should be my priority, however for several years of my life that was not the case.
Weight loss has been the toughest war that I have ever fought in. For many years, I have been loosing the war. I continuously decided to retreat and hide due to fear and insecurity.  Deep down I felt that I should surrender because I would never achieve it, that I would never become healthy and thin and it would all be just a dream.

Wars are meant to be fought, dreams are meant to become true.
Today I pick up myself, dusty and all, and start The Reinvention of Jackie.

Honestly, there is fear. I know that this is not going to be easy. I have tried and failed, but as in any war it is not about how many battles you lose, but winning overall. I am determined to hide no more and keep on fighting. I am in a routine that I am use too, and not big on change. My schedule is amazingly busy, and it is my largest crutch. But as I have been told, a crutch is an excuse and the excuses continues to keep me fat.

Do not get me wrong, I love me! I love who I am, but I would be lying if I told you that I love the package I am wrapped in. I don't! I feel that the wrapping does not represent me well. There is a fashionista, designer, recreation leader, and a hottie hidden underneath of all this skin and weight waiting to come out. The beauty from inside should and will be presented out. 

With exercise, the right foods,  and change of environment, my lifestyle is about to get interesting. :)

Here I am Ladies and Gentleman all 242lbs of me. I ultimately want to reach about 165lbs, but right now my goal is to reach 230lbs in one month. 
As hard as this is going to be, I am going to take a deep breathe and step out of my comfort zone.  Wish me luck! ..and The Reinvention Begins!